02 April 2008
I feel like I'm just trying to survive.
When I look at a date, it means nothing to me. March 30th. No idea when that was. I have to look at a calendar to realize that it was Sunday. I live week to week, planning things in the future, but don't do them once I realize the future is already here. Like with spring break, we were going to go up to DC. Never happened. By the time spring break arrived we didn't feel like going because we had too much to do here. I'd planned a couple of projects to do by next weekend. Guess what? Still not done. I honestly don't know what to do with myself. All I can think about is tomorrow is Thursday. I have my music class on Thursdays. Oh, and Max has a doctor's appointment. Very important, can't miss that. I have NO IDEA what I'm doing this weekend. I think it's conference. It has to be, fast Sunday was last Sunday. Which means Paige is going to Utah to see it live. I'm so jealous. So I'll be listening to conference. That definitely brightens up my weekend! But after that, who knows what'll happen? I'll be taking it day by day, or couple of days by couple of days like usual. I hope I can snap out of this once the semester's over, and at the very least, once I graduate. Then hopefully I'll feel like living instead of just surviving again. And that's my ramble for tonight. Now I can go to bed.